Tuesday, April 20, 2010 ;
12:13 PM
I am on off today. Hahahahhaha.
Feeling kinda down lately.. not too sure why, perhaps I am PMSing, perhaps it's due to some factors at work which is giving me some very unnecessary stress.
Oh well, anyway, I am dying to go on a holiday! And the best thing is, 2 days ago, my Smelly suddenly said to me, "I feel like going for a holiday." Words like these don't leave his mouth easily so it must be a miracle! And because it is a miracle, I must fulfil it right! I am such a fantastic gf. Hahaha, but Smelly treats me like no other so I guess he deserves much of my effort :)
And so my birthday is coming, and I have yet to decide what I want or what I am getting from him. He said he's saving for my ring so I guess have to go easy on him. Hahaha, but I guess, as long as I have him by my side, I am more than happy.
After the whole lumpsssss episode, and how my surgeon and nurses told me to 'prepare for the worst', I am now taking life easy and counting my blessings that I came out of it well and fine. Must have done many good deeds to be blessed with a healthy body once again, which I shall not take for granted again. Shall watch my diet and eat less of those fatty meat, super oily food etc.
And above all, I have learnt how much Smelly cares for me in his own little ways. Little things like making juice for me everyday without fail, making sure I eat healthily, shielding me from crowds may seem insignificant to others, but meant the world to me. Big things matter, small things matter more. :)
Although it has been 3++ years into our relationship and almost 10 yrs into our friendship, things only got better. Leon is still the same sweet boy I met 10 years ago, and the sweet bf I promised myself to 3 years ago. He still calls me whenever he is on a smoke break or reaches work. He still calls me whenever he can during lunch, and we still talk on the phone every night. Looking back, I guess we still are the same people who met 10 years ago. We still hung out with the same friends, we still talk to each other whenever we can, we still treat each other the same way, we still tell each other the most bo liao things, we still do ridiculous things to make each other laugh, only now, we are in love, and it makes me so happy to know that it has been Smelly all along and God put him in my life for a very special reason. :) And Smelly says I am still his ideal girl even after so many years :)
With our house on the way, and him saving for 'my ring' (I tell you, it must be the most amazing feeling for someone to have the intention to splash hard earned money on you just to seek your hand in marriage. He stopped to look at the blings at The Diamond Atelier the other day, my heart leapt even though I tried very hard to keep a straight face and tried to kill whatever imagery in my head) I guess we are slowly moving on to the next phase of our lives. And guess what? Instead of feeling frightened like how I would feel in previous relationships, I am totally looking forward to it just because I am doing all these with my best friend and soulmate :)
light my way ♥
Tuesday, April 13, 2010 ;
7:12 PM
After 2 weeks of suspense, I am finally certified cancer-free.
Although strangely, I wasn't exactly frightened or anything (my greatest fear of the whole episode is prolly that I will lose my hair), hearing this from my surgeon today felt so damn amazing. And I feel fricking blessed to be alive and healthy once again. And I tell you, I love that woman. She was initially worried about the outcome, especially the big one as a histo was only done on sample, not the true tumor and she shared with me that she was actually very very relieved that it was benign after a second testing. It was dangerously big even as a benign tumour. I swear the load was lifted off my shoulders the moment I walked in and she gave me a big big smile and said,"yes very very good news" when I asked if she had good news for me the moment I sat down. I believe this woman has healing hands (which I generously tease her whenever I see her) and I am so damn glad I am part of her good stats (a nurse shared with me this, hahaha. I love their team there, they are so nice and friendly)
So back to see her in 6 months, and another U/S in a year's time and subsequent general checks to keep me in the clear. In return I had to promise her I wouldn't be a naughty girl no more and do my frequent checks. Don't have much meat on my chest left to donate to the biohazard bin.
Much thanks to all my friends, colleagues and family for their concern, gifts, flowers, hampers and what not. And most importantly, for all your love and support.
And of course, all my love to my one and only Smelly. For being there for me forever, teasing me mercilessly (which made me laugh so hard even though I wish to kick him in the nuts for it at first glance), for being such a strong anchor in my life and for telling me I am still his ideal girl after 4-5 years and that he will always and forever love me scarred, or not. I LOVE MY SMELLY! <3
IT'S GOOD TO BE ALIVE AND KICKIN'!!!
Time to celebrate aka go shopping!
Weeee~
light my way ♥
Wednesday, April 07, 2010 ;
1:02 PM
The variable factors is really funny, gauge only, not including things like wedding favours, costs incurred during their wedding prep so please +++ yourselves!
light my way ♥
Sunday, April 04, 2010 ;
12:20 AM
Somehow, watching you sleep on the makeshift bed on the floor, in my room, makes me feel really happy and protected. Feels like the mighty knight guarding his sick little princess. Hehehehehe :D
Thank you baby for shuttling between places and making time to keep me company every day since my surgery, knowing that I would feel lonely over the weekends.
Thank you for buying me my favourite snacks to cheer me up too! :D
You are truly the best one can have. <3
light my way ♥
Friday, April 02, 2010 ;
10:10 PM
Every day, every hour, every minute, I am won over by your gentleness..
light my way ♥
