Caught in a whirl

Many things has happened in the past week.

Mostly bad and depressing stuff and I am still trying to resolve them.

Basically I decided to cut my losses short and resigned. I do not know what's going to happen though. Still in the process of sorting out the bond =(

Thankfully my family and Baby have been exceeding supportive and doting. No one has yet to raise their voice at me concerning this issue.

Leon's dad has been very encouraging and he's also helping me to iron out issues relating to my contract.

One thing is clear now.

Money is nothing compared to the support and love of your loved ones.

Will update again when I am in a better mood.

Do pray for me that all things will turn out in my favour!

Thanks!

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.



Drown in fear and fear drowns you

I am trying to psycho myself with the above, but it doesn't seem to be working..

Hahaha..




I miss Baby..

I wish we had more alone time together.




I must be strong!

Wish me luck ok!

=)



One more day..

It's Sunday. My last day of freedom.

=(

Baby sent me home earlier.

Sorry I slowed down your day with my sulky sad sad face.

I just cannot bear to tear myself away from you and my holiday =(

It's been so short, so sweet.

=(

I am very scared =(

I am scared, that I wont have time for you.

I am scared that we will meet less often.

I am scared you will meet someone to fill our void.

I am scared I'll lose you.

And I know I am imagining things.









The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.

I am very lucky.

They say, that it is a blessing to find someone you love truly who loves you completely.

I found that someone.

And the best of all, he happens to be my best friend of coming 8 years.

My soulmate, and the person who understands me without having me to pour out my feelings to him.

The person who tenderly waits for me, and puts a hand on my shoulder whenever I am having a bad time.

The person who tells me "I have seen you at your worst, and your best, and you are beautiful no matter what."

The person who wraps T&C around my wrist when my face is full of pimples and at my ugliest.

The person who loves me for the person I am, and not because of how I look.

The person whom I slapped in Orchard eons around (many years ago) because I was throwing a tantrum (I still cannot remember why I did that :() and he still is friends with me after that! :)

The person who tells me to taunt at Fort Canning hill so we can go register at ROM the next morning when they open their gates.

The person who wraps me in his blankie and feeds me medicine when I am sick.

The person who appears to be stronger even when both of us are sick because he wants to take care of me.

The person who tries his hardest to put a smile on my face and make me laugh when I am sulking.





You know, I never knew it would be such a blessing to be your girlfriend. I always thought (long time ago) that she would be quite unlucky. Maybe because then, I always thought you spent too much time with other girls and would neglect your then girlfriend.

Looking back, it seems like you spent a lot of time with me. That I may have taken up too much of your time to make them the unlucky lot. You never seem to have been a great boyfriend to them and as weird as it seem then to 'participate' in your relationship as your 'jie jie', it never occurred to me that I would one day, eat my own words and tell you that you are a great boyfriend, to me at least. That I have misjudged you (or maybe because you were still young then?) and I am VERY GLAD and thankful for every single minute we have spent together ever since we have known each other. At the very least, I think you have shaped my life and made me become a much better person under your influence.

You have been a wonderful friend, not just to me but to those around you. As much as how some of them have verbal sparring with you on some occasions, I do think that you are very dear to them, as they are to you. I think you have shown me what friendship and brotherhood is in a group. Despite going through years, arguments, fights, different environments and directions, watching you guys come together during the weekends talking about things makes me smile. You guys aren't just friends, you guys are family.

Despite your bad boy image in the eyes of some people/parents, I got to say that you got to be the best guy I know. You have an amazing personality, a heart of gold, brains, wit, humour, and everything else that makes you the amazing person you are. Sometimes when you talk about me wanting to meet 'other men', it makes me want to laugh because I don't think I can ever meet anyone as wonderful as you are. I don't know where to find a person with a bigger heart than you. It is already my blessing to have met you. Why would I trade you off for something worse? There is no one else I want/need more than you. I think you changed a lot of me ever since we got together.

One thing I'm sure of, is that I want a future with you. The time spent together with you in the past year, especially in recent months have cleared up a lot of doubts.

I have nothing to hold back now. I don't have to be defensive around you, I can let my guard down because I know you won't hurt me delibrately.

And I have found something amazing in us.

So keep me going ok?



Sick at home

Down with a bad runny nose and I got to breathe through my mouth.

This sucks.

I miss my Baby.

=(

That sucked more.

And it's almost time for me to drag my ass back to society and earn my pennies.

=(

Sigh.

Baby's gonna go to the gym.

And I'm gonna nap for a little bit before dinner.

*sniffles*



The days that seem to go by so quickly..

It's 2 days to Friday and my moods seem to get from bad to worse as the hours tick by..

Got dragged out of bed this morning (didn't sleep very well cause of the damn mossies. kept buzzing around my ears in the middle of the night! damn to wake up to plug in the mossie mat and spray some mossie baygon and open my door for a while hoping the damn mossie will fly out. slept with the blankie over my head for most of the night!) and joined Baby and his family at Conrad for dim sum brunch. Dim sum was very good. At least something to cheer me up. Was feeling quite lethargic for the whole of today, while we went shopping for their bed linen. Started to feel unwell towards the evening and now I'm sneezing like no tomorrow! Damn lousy time to get sick. Really just want to spend all my time with Leon. Sigh. I feel damn down.

Argh.

Went to catch Vexille with Baby as well. Was suppose to watch it with mun mun too BUT we didn't know it was NC16! In the end, mun mun wasn't allowed to join us, but he was offered a movie switch of his choice. That brave boy (he's 12) decided to catch One Missed Call, ALONE. Damn brave right. I would prolly shit my pants if I were to watch it with 10 people, not to mention alone.

Anyway, when we met u (our movie ended at around the same time) his face was blue. Hahah. Poor thing. Vexille was interesting. Glad Baby managed to catch it =)

I love him. He's the sweetest human alive. =) And I am gonna miss him real bad starting next week..

*depressed mode*

Caught I am Legend last week as well. Freaky ass show. Great story line but had my heart stopping a couple of times. Hahahhaa.

Okay anyway I am I am going to find some food to munch on. Just took some flu medication and I'm feeling a tad drowsy.

And I still feel like sneaking off to Baby's place tomorrow.

Sigh.

=(



Almost Friday again...

I usually look forward to my weekly dose of Friday but this time round, Friday seem to come too quickly... Another 1 more friday after tomorrow would mean it's almost time to start work...

Which means... less of seeing Leon.

Sigh.

*de-pweh-xion*

=(

Okay, enough of sob thoughts.

Today was a rather dash-here-run-there day.

Baby cleared his Stage 3 of driving!!!! My darling managed to continue from where he stopped a couple of years ago and he could actually remember what he learnt since '04! Cleared 2 lessons at a go some days and now he's officially able to book for his TP after his final theory! Some of his instructors even said baby drives like a Pro already! =) Sugoi baby! He's been going for driving lessons every single day for the past week since he signed up and he will be going for 2 lessons back to back next week for 3-4 days and he would have officially completed the entire course + revision lessons! So proud of him! =)

So anyway, went to YCK to meet him this morning after his lessons. Baby bought mango freeze. Very sweet. Both the freeze and Baby =) Nowadays I notice he will buy mango-whatever he can get his hands on.. cause I like mango =)

Went back to his place for a bit first before heading out for some shopping. Managed to get another skirt suit. Got 2 skirt suits and 1 pant suit now. Hope it's enough.

Had yummy uber seafood horfun at Centrepoint for dinner. Wah this one is really good. Near prima-taste or something like that. $10.50 for the seafood horfan with a VERY generous portion of giant shelled prawns, scallops, sotong and veggies. Totally value for money man!! =) The pi dan joek is also very good. Tried it the other time when we were there with his parents and aunt after bed shopping. YUMMY la.

Went to shop for Aunty Jenny's brooch too. She decided to give me the shoes as my starting-work present (helped me sign for them the other time cause she has the robinsons card) so went to get her a little something as a gift in return. Bought a cute starfish one to match the sivorski earrings I got her for X'mas.

Headed home a little earlier than usual today as well. Poor Baby was a little unwell and he's tired from the day hence we left after ice-cream.

Okay la. Actually I have no idea what I am talking about too. I feel like a robot regurgitating my program for today.

Ok night.

Haha.



I love you not because you can be taller, smarter, skinnier or richer.

I love you because you are you.

It is not the wealth in your wallet that I want, but the wealth in your heart that counts.

It is not how high your stature can measure to, but how far your aspirations can reach.

It is not how wide your girth is, but how vast your magnanimity shows.

It is not how good you look in the eyes of others, but how fabulous you look in my eyes.

You are loved, because of the person you are and there is no one else that measures up.






Hmm... in another 2 and a half weeks more, we gonna be celebrating our first year anniversary (actually we didn't officially set the date but decided on that day because of the significance haha)

Out of this one year, we spent 8-9 months apart.

Time flies.

And I am glad, you are home.

=)











Makan, Shopping, Movie!

It's Aunty Jenny's birthday~ Went to have dimsum lunch with her and Leon this afternoon.

Went to Chatterbox for very lousy coffee/milo afterwards. 7-8 bucks per glass and they taste like long gao water! *puke*

Went to Robinsons as well to get his sheets. Oh oh oh~ Baby got his Queen bed! Went to buy beds with him, his aunt as well as his parents on Sat. That salesman at Robinsons must be damn happy. Must have earned a neat commission from 1 king bed and 2 queen beds as well as 2 frames) Silly boy said it's so that I will have a comfy place to sleep when I go over (so we don't have to squeeze)

So anyway, I also got a pair of shoes from Robinsons. No discount also =_=

Most freaking expensive pair of pumps I have ever gotten =_=; Cost a crazy 175 bucks. Hope they will be comfortable else my heart will bleed!!



Also bought a roomy bag as well as a small handbag from M)phosis. Love their bags man. Value for money! Hee hee!


Caught this black comedy film Darjeeling Limited with Baby in the evening as well...

Errmmm... Went in with an empty mind, left the cinema feeling ever more empty. Luckily he got UOB discount so paid 6 bucks per ticket. Hai. Better than AVP2 we caught that day though. (Wahahaha :x Baby dont angry!) Yeah we caught AVP2 last week. First time I actually accompanied someone to watch shows like that! See, you are SO important. Hahaha. Anyway very stressful show. Came out feeling sick and traumatized. Hahaha.

Okie, time to end the post. Nothing interesting to talk about as well.

Nighttttt!



You complete me

A line from the Alvin and the Chipmunks that really strikes me for a moment. Alvin said Dave should say it to Claire.

Cliché but nothing beats old fashioned romance.

Huiqing thinks she should say it to Leon.

You complete me.

When we were outside Macdonalds, I had the urge to wrap my arms around you. 2 more weeks and the thought of not seeing you as and when I please, and everyday, scares me. I am nervous. Nervous not just about the job, not also how I was going to cope without seeing you.

Just when I thought I had grown independent after Andy, and how detached I can be from anybody, I have grown, towards you, in the opposite direction. Now it almosts seems like seeing you, meeting you, is natural.

How?

Thinking about you now makes me cry. What am I to do next time should anything happen. My attachment to you is beyond what I have ever felt. How am I to cope? It's beyond me.

I used to think that doing everything for him when I was "in love" required a lot of effort. To make my way to his home, to clean up, to cook, all requires effort. So much effort that I felt that's how love should be - requiring all my effort. But now, I find myself waking up early to wake you up, to clean up for you, to cook for you, part of what I want to do. Something that requires no reminder from myself because "I am your girlfriend, and that's what a girlfriend does". Now I find myself waking up in the morning and getting ready to travel half the island to see you. To tell you how I feel when you neglect me (sleep sleep sleep!) and throw a tantrum when I want to catch a movie instead of wasting time doing nothing, seems all natural to me. To be me, without being judged by you.

I do not know what magic you performed, or what you fed me, but you make me feel so human, it scares me. I feel vulnerable being myself in front of you. Vulnerable because I am scared that I am human, not perfect. And you may see my flaws.

Winnie said to me the other day that it's time we talk about the future. Planning for the future. Jokes aside, sometimes I am worried you may be just joking when we talking about the future. Expectations bring disappointment. I am scared I may expect too much.

But yet, everytime I see you, it feels right..

I cried when I was in the showers just now. Not because I was upset or sad. But because I was moved thinking of all the things you did for me. The flowers, the letters, how you piggy-backed me in front of the coffeeshop when you took me to the doctor after I fell in Ubin. How you got down on your knees in front of your family, to their shock, to take off my socks/shoes and tie my shoelaces that fateful day. How you went down on your knees again to take off my shoes in full public view at the Grand Palace in BKK. How you bought me softtoys as little apology gifts even though I was probably in the wrong (and cannot remember why I was angry) just to cheer me up. How you fished out the little blue box in our hotel room in BKK. How played slave to me to massage my feet until I fell asleep even though you were tired yourself and you were not my bf when we were there. How you kissed my forehead on the times I pretended I was drunk (and pretended I was unaware) or when I was asleep. How you stretched out your arms for me to bite when I was in pain from the fall when the policeman was dressing my wounds. How you made me laugh and treated me extra special to tell me you care.

So many times, so many things that you have done moved me deeply

Perhaps the many times I let you make your moves on me isn't because I didn't know. Perhaps it was because I wanted you to.

Because I can never forget the day the auntie asked if we were a couple eons ago, while I was picking out my sweater at U2.

Because I can never forget that you told me eons ago when your Aunt Lola asked why don't you go after me. (why didn't you?)

Because I can never forget the way you look in that green striped polo tee shirt and specs years ago at Mos.

Because perhaps, something in me wants this everyday since the day we grew close.

I don't love you because you are tallest, most handsome, best person I know.

But because I love you, you are the tallest, most handsome, and the best person I know.

You gave me so much love and friendship in the past 8 years, coming 9, and yet, you never faltered.

Thank you and I am very glad of all the stupid and dumb things I have done, and for the person I am, you still chose to fall in love with me.

And falling in love with you, has got to be second smartest thing I have done.

The smartest thing, is to let you hold my hand on the bus to Genting.

I wasn't cold, by the way. I had wanted to hold your hand too :P The temperature, was an excuse when you asked :x

Usachan asked if I didn't love her this evening. I do. But I am not one to express myself openly. And this message to you. I just am not someone to tell you how great you are even though I feel that way.

So yup..

You're wonderful baby =)



Merry Christmas and Hello 2008!

A little late I know, but I haven't been home much lately to blog about anything at all. Been out a lot and too tired to recount on days I am home.

So, yeah.

Merry Xmas and Happy New Year to everyone!

Hahaha.

Actually I cannot recall what has happened in the past year as well.

Let's see..

I joined Reuters.
I left Reuters.
I went to Genting and BKK with Leon.
Two of my cousins got married.
I went for Lasik.
I got dengue during my trip to BKK and became part of the statistics.
I went for Lasik two days before I got diagnosed with dengue.
I got bitten by the Clarins craze.
I watched plenty of anime.
A few of my jobs in FF hit 75.
I got together with Leon.
I found out Nature Valley has the best granola bars in my whole wide world (thanks to my mother for buying me them)
I survived 2x of 4 months with Leon being away in Aust.
I drank less this year.
I still stayed smoke-free (well done me!)
I tried very expensive food.
I got a very expensive watch from someone's daddy.
Leona and Baby hamster were born.
My wallet started to bleed. (WEONAAAAAAAAAAAAANANANANA)


That's about all that happened besides work I think.

So no-life.

Hahaha.

Anyway 2007 was a relatively good year compared to 2006 so I am happy =)

So what do I wish for, for the year 2008?

Happiness, health and luck!

Hope to strike it rich too. Hahaha I have got "dependents" (weonanananana!) now. Hahaha.


Anyway, I went to the zoo around 2 weeks ago as well. My baby paid to let us go feed the kangeroos!!! Ain't he sweet. I love guys with a heart of gold! (And your's is made out of solid gold =)) Pictures are with Chris so I'll save them for another day =)

Xmas was spent at his aunt's place with the gang. Borrowed her house for the night. Hahaha. Uncle was generous enough to let us feast on the Shangrila Xmas feast by bringing the food over there. The turkey and ham was soooo good. And not forgetting the Wellington beef. Ooh la laaaaaa!! He also kindly sponsored us 8 bottles of yum yum wine. A bit wasted to drink good wines like water (and as a penalty). Tsk tsk but all was good.

Countdown to 2008 was spent at Eskibar. Woah man, Holland V was super happening. Met up with a few gamer friends with Baby and my brother for a buffet dinner at Furama before that as well. Anyway the food sucked.

First meal of 2008? Delicious kuey chap at Potong Pasir. My baby didn't eat. But yet he accompanied me all the way there for my kuey chap. It's only the first day of 2008 and I have received my first blessing in the form of my Baby.

How wonderful =)

Ok la. Lazy to blog already.

Shopping tomorrow.

Gonna accompany Baby to register for his driving on Thurs and facial later that evening.

Wee~ I can't wait!!

Hope you people had a great time counting down yesterday.

Time to wait for my Baby to get home.

Play game play game!

f'Love qing.
quarter century old;
economy whore;
singapore

family;
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anime;
musik;
rain;
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