light my way

Monday, March 10, 2008 ;

8:48 PM

Warmest hands in my world

Went to accompany Baby for a bit today in between his driving classes. He arranged 3 for today but was made to skip out the morning one because his mom forgot to wake him up. Yeah my boy is very KS, his TP is this coming Friday so he arranged on average 2 lessons a day until Friday. Very proud that he is taking this very seriously :)

Because I know he don't want me to laugh at him should the improbable happen. =)

Heh.

I am such a cruel girlfriend.

But Leon, on the other extreme end, is my perfect boyfriend. They say that it is in times of adversity that you find out who are people who are true to you. And ever since I hit the big bad rough patch, he has demonstrated only the purest of motives and the sort of genuine concern that even I myself, finds it too good to be true. He has never directly, or indirectly berated me on the ongoings that I have caused myself. He has been suggested blame nor a lack of intelligence on my part. He has been thoroughly patient with me whenever I go back and forth pacing around the same scenarios that would/might/what-if-it-happens.

Instead, he showered me with so much tenderness and kindness that I find impossible to believe. He was always there, patient and listening to me go on and on about how lost and confused I am, how worried I am. Taking my pendulous moods in his stride. Laughing and poking fun at me when I am happy. Taking me out for impromptu movies when I am feeling down. Letting me walk all over him when I am feeling and acting like a tyrant. Doing his utmost to make me feel precious and cherished. Making sure that he is always there for me.

Despite all the crap that's happening, I do feel very lucky to have him in particular, to be my boyfriend. Given any guy, they would have bailed already.

All I pray is that the FT's words will materialize. Things that looks bleak now will be a thing of a past soon. That I will indeed have a bright future ahead of me.

And of course, that Baby will be true to me and that hopefully we will be able to share a happy future ahead of us together. Because at this point in my life, I feel no one came/comes close.

And you asked if I would choose you again if I had to make a choice all over again, even though I had to go through some of those days I considered a little dark..

I quote these words from Kite Runner,

For you, a thousand times over...

Anyway, I caught this movie Sky of Love this evening. A Japanese love story. Teenage love flick. Felt like the longest 2 hourish in my life. Very slow and delibrate plot. Kinda romantic but I guess would had been better if I were 14 or 15. Would probably sap my tears dry if I were of that age. But present the movie in front of this weathered old prune and it becomes some sort of a time-stopping machine. Just wished no one had to die. Feels like a forwarded story on the big screen. Cried towards the end. Not sure if it's because it's touching, or because the movie is finally almost over. Hahaha just kidding. But not too bad if you have nothing else to do. Storyline a bit too fantasy.

Guess I am too old to buy the "I'm gonna die so because I love you, I will push you away so you wouldn't suffer at my loss and hope you will be happy with another person. And because our love is true, we will somehow find each other again and that for a very brief moment, we will swear our love till the end of time and get married at our own private ceremony with the skies and the grass as our witness and taste happiness. And not long later, when I die, my only wish is to see your smile. And when I pass on, you will read my diary and realized that my world evolves around you, and only you, and what we shared was pure love and romance."

Anyway I am quite amazed at the series of unfortunate events that happened to the girl. (spoilers: don't read if you intend to watch) First she lost her phone. Then someone Guy came to have possession of it and plots to have her get it back. Then Guy courts her via her phone by first, erasing all her data and brainwashing her that if those people want to talk to her, they would call her. And calls her all the time to chat about everything. Then Guy arranges to meet with after her birthday and turns out Guy was that punk she was afraid of. Then Guy swept her off her feet with his tenderness towards the flowers she has rejected when he presented them to her earlier. Then Guy brought her home and they had sex. Then girl took a train to look for him and she got raped by a group of guys who were hired by Guy's ex-girlfriend who got scorned. Then Guy got mad and went to look for the people who raped his girlfriend. Guy brought back his scorned ex-girlfriend and had her hair snipped off by Guy's sister as punishment. Then everything was okay and they went back to school. Then they had sex again in the school library (!!!! funny the library was empty during school hours and the nerve they had) and girl gets pregnant. They proposed to each other's family to get married the year they turn 18 and things seem to go well. Then Guy's scorned ex girlfriend went to school and pushed her and she fell (or something). Then she had her miscarriage. Then Guy and her were devastated. Then Guy started to act strange and they broke up. Then girl got heartbroken but managed to date another super nice guy. Then they started going out for a while. And girl ran into Guy during the anniversary of their unborn child at this spot they remembered the Baby by. Guy was wearing a skicap and ran off when they girl was rattling questions at him. Girl chase down his path until she came to a fork where she had to choose between chasing after Guy or going back to the super nicer guy who was waiting for her at that other end of the road. Girl chose super nice guy. Next year during the anniversary again, Girl went to pay her respects. Super nice guy gave her a ring and pleaded with her not to go alone but be accompanied by him as Guy may be there again. Girl asked to be trusted and said she will promise that they will be together forever, bonded by the ring he had just given her. So alone she went and found Guy's friend there instead. And found out Guy was dying of cancer, which was why he had to make them break up. Then cue in super nice guy who found her dazed by the little monument girl and Guy remembered their unborn child by. Then girl started acting hysterical and said Guy was sick and she had to go see him. Super nice guy pleaded for her to stay but suddenly, as she struggled, the ring flew off her ringer. Then super nice guy asked her to go because he loves her, and he wants her to be happy. So girl went to find Guy at the hospital, sick with cancer. Guy and girl relented and decided to get back together again. Girl visited and cared for him. Took him to a picnic and decided to get married under the skies. They are happy. Then girl ran into scorned ex girlfriend who was pregnant with her own child and asked girl to slap her to ask for forgiveness. But girl blessed the child and all is forgiven. One day, before the Guy got asked for go for his checkups, she had an ill-foreboding feeling when he passed her his camera and asked to have the shots developed. Girl did as she was told and on the way out of the shop, Guy's sister called her and urged her to come to the hospital immediately. Girl panicked and ran towards the hospital (I think it's very far). Girl ran and ran and decided to call Guy on 3G service to encourage him. Girl fell and the photos scattered all over the ground. They were all pictures of girl that Guy took secretly when she was nursing him in the hospital. Girl chided him and was crying. Guy then asked her for a smile and after she did and hung up, Guy died. After the funeral, Guy's sister passed her his diary. Girl was feeling dazed and carried it to his favourite spot. Girl tried to jump off the bridge but was intercepted by 2 white doves and dropped his diary. Diary flips out and stopped at a drawing of them holding their unborn child in between them. Girl cries and saw that the diary was written all with regards to her. Girl felt touched and decided to be strong. Then fast forward to the future, the girl says she will always love the sky which he said he wants to become, so he could watch over her etc.

Anyway the story by itself was kinda sweet but the presentation was kinda haphazard in a way. And snail-crawling slow. Waterhorse on the otherhand, was niceeee. Shall not spoil it for anyone so, yeah, go watch it.

Ok, I am feeling dazed again, so night night.

light my way ♥

Sunday, March 02, 2008 ;

6:54 PM

Turtle Kuay Chap and MOF @ My Izakaya

Stayed over at Baby's place on Tues night and went with him to pick up Aunt Lola and Mun mun early Friday morning. T3 never fails to instill that sense of pride in me whenever I visit. It's so nice!

Met up with Chris, Fang, Lay Jeng and Hao last Wed for orh gui kway chap dinner at MacPherson. It is still unknown if they use the turtle soup for the kuay chap soup base. My guess is that they mixed a little of that into it since the stall sells turtle herbal soup. Anyway it's not too bad la. Quite tasty but I still prefer the lighter tasting kway chap over at Potong Pasir (Lao Zhong Zhong coffeeshop)

Headed over to MOF @ My Izakaya over at Bugis afterwards for our desserts!

MAN! THIS PLACE IS QUITE AWESOME! Hehehe. Not your typical ice-cream sundaes with cocoa puffs and waffle affair, but instead, they serve sundaes and other desserts with a Japanese twist. Yum yum! Less than 10 per serving and it's a rather big portion. But since Baby and I had never tried them before, we ordered separate portions so we could have variety =)

Baby giving a thumbs-up/crazy assed funny expression for his sundae. His new funky hairdo. Hahaha. My mum actually likes it :p She even noticed his tail. Hahaha.

Mine! :) There were 3 spoons so I guess it's meant to be shared among 3 people. This originally came with 5 chewy dumplings (the white balls) but I added extra toppings of another 5.

Both of our desserts were among the recommended list :)

Ran some errands with him on Friday.

Baby came over to my place again for dinner on Saturday. Hehe. So yeah.. I introduced him to my parents over chinese new year. Or rather my parents made me bring him home. Not that I didn't want to la. But scared you see :p But I am glad that I finally introduced him to my parents formally. This is the first time ever I actually acknowledged my boyfriend in front of my family and it feels great that my partner is none other than him. :) Parents seems to take a liking to him so I guess all is well in the relationship department. At least one good thing is happening to me right now :)

Okay time to go back my WoW.

Pray hard I can find my direction in life soon..

I feel so lost..

light my way ♥